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Card 1: Your present situation
XIX THE SUN REVERSED
Maybe people have been telling you that you should smile more. Whatever smiles you're doing right now are somewhat performative, more for the benefit of others than yourself. You might find that you're having trouble accessing your own happiness for whatever reason, or even actively suppressing it. There's a strong theme of āfaking itā, denying what you really want in service of those around you. This is not a comfortable situation to be in, and I'm sure you know it's not sustainable, even if it feels doable for the time being.
Card 2: Current challenges
V THE HIEROPHANT
You may feel constrained by tradition and the society you grew up in - whether these constraints take the form of actual people (such as family members) or are simply abstract feelings festering within you doesn't matter. You are being held back and will continue to be held back until you're able to look your origins in the eye and understand them for what they are, which is a source of many of your personal insecurities and unconscious biases.
Card 3: What to focus on
ACE OF WANDS
Though you may feel blocked and suppressed, your potential hasn't gone away. In fact, inspiration and motivation may be striking you very soon - there is a danger that you will ignore it due to not recognizing it for what it is. Focus on building self-trust so that when the powerful feelings burst inside of you, you're able to harness them and utilize them to their full potential. Don't let others ātalk you downā from what may appear to be a ledge upon first glance.
Card 4: Your Past
7 OF PENTACLES REVERSED
You have yet to be rewarded for your tremendous efforts. In the past, you have gone through a period of very hard work that exhausted you, and you became frustrated that you didn't seem to get a chance to enjoy the fruits of your labor. Maybe you didn't get credit for your hard work, maybe the people around you didn't see it for what it was. Perhaps you were immediately confronted with even more difficult situations, and the path ahead felt long and arduous with no summit in sight.
Card 5: Your Strengths
10 OF PENTACLES REVERSED
You are a humble person. You see material wealth as the cruel, isolating force that it is, and therefore you do not place as much importance on it as those around you do. Those around you might judge you for this trait, calling you unambitious, but they lack the wisdom that you already have - you will not easily get caught up in the cycle of fast-paced capitalism that most of the world operates on the basis of.
Card 6: Your near future
XIII DEATH
You are nearing the end of your current cycle, and will experience something of a rebirth. A shedding of the skin. You might find yourself confronted with an unexpectedly difficult loss - not necessarily an actual death, but the loss of a job, an opportunity, a friendship, a dream. This loss will shake up your world and force you into your next phase of maturing - it's natural to grieve the loss a bit, but you'll be surprised at how quickly you're able to pick yourself up and move on, changed.
Card 7: Suggested Approach
3 OF WANDS REVERSED
You might find yourself tempted to avoid action in order to not make any mistakes. In fact, this is a way for you to avoid making any difficult decisions. The world is pushing you to trust yourself, to be confident in your choices, to rely on your own judgement, for it is good enough. If you ignore this push, you risk avoiding your intended transformation entirely, and you might be unprepared for future life events because you did not heed the call to grow and develop. Do not avoid action, trust in your decisions during this time.
Card 8: What you need to know
QUEEN OF SWORDS REVERSED
You might be inclined to deny your reality right now. Others who have your best interests at heart may point out some uncomfortable truths about you and your situation, and you might ignore them the way you at times ignore your own wants and needs. You risk being distracted by petty emotional drama that is unimportant in the grand scheme of things, because you might be afraid of what you would face if you were to look in the mirror. It would be wise to stop being afraid to confront yourself and your reality.
Card 9: Hopes & Fears
QUEEN OF WANDS
You both hope and fear that nobody will stop you when you finally make your moves. Deep down, you want to be respected and seen as a bold, competent adult - however, because you have yet to see yourself in this light, you also fear being seen as independent and respectable. You are maturing quickly as of late, and I'm sure that you can feel changes starting to take place inside. Rather than fighting it, trusting the process will bring you some comfort.
Card 10: overall potential outcome
8 OF PENTACLES REVERSED
You might find that the path suddenly gives out beneath your feet, or that you've gotten lost in an attempt to follow it. Without a clear sense of direction, you might be tempted to walk further away from reality - I wouldn't blame you for doing so. However, if you're able to harness your inner strength and heed the universeās call to develop yourself, you will be able to forge a new path that is not only more stable, but also more achievable. You might discover something about yourself that inspires you to forget this path, something you would have never thought to try before. It's likely that rough times are ahead for you, so it's necessary to strengthen the bond you have with yourself in order to survive it.